Unrequited Love... AGAIN!

Sumtimes i felt so stupid just by thinking of falling in love. I mean i've been avoiding it since my last situation with K'. But it seems nobody can run away from it. It starts like this, i've been hanging out with this bunch of PLU's which i recently know. They are such a lovely bunch and each of them have their own unique charachter. Talking to them makes me feel like i'm myself and it seems that they can accept me for who i am. It all started when i went to this trip to PD which was totally awesome. it was so great until i couldn't wait for the next outing. At first i felt a bit awkward but i goes on smoothly when i started to hang with them more often.

Insan yang bernama K'

One day i met this guy named Louie. Just by the first glance i'm totally attracted to him. His attitude and his style just makes me nervous and unconfortable each time i see him. Thank god i rarely see him since he has a boyfriend already (i think) and even if he doesn't i dun i'm his type anyway. Cummon, nobody would want this piece of shit. Even i myself wouldn't date me since i'm damn ugly and noisy. But ever since i saw him i kept on thinking about him. I tried to distract myself to others which are much hotter than him, but everytime i did that i couldn't have the same feeling when i watch guys before i met him. I just don't want to have another crush that will take me nowhere coz it hurt so much just by thinking only. i know i dun have a chance with him. I kept tellin myself that and i even force myself to think about K' again. But it didn't work. I hate this feeling. Feeling wanting somebody who won't even look at u. who won't even want u even if u pay him to be ur lover.

What should i do? Why the fuck this happen to me again? Am i such a typical Aries which easily to fall in love? I hate love coz i know i could never have it. I hate the feeling of liking guys that won't like me. If only there's a machine which can wipe out certain memories in my head and make me forget about him i would do it without even thinking twice. I'm sorry Louie sebab tak pasal-pasal ko cam terjadik topik blog ini. Dah la ko tak kenal aku. Name aku pon ko tak tau. Tetibe jer ade orang yang suke kat ko sampai camnie. But dun worry. I'll will make sure i forget this feeling even though it would be damn difficult. I will avoid being the typical Aries. Again i'm sorry Louie. Hopefully u tak terbaca la blog nie sebab the possibility u came across this blog is one in a million since i just created this blog for myself and i didn't tell anybody about it.


Sebelum tue aku nak kenalkan antara orang-orang yang agak penting la dalam hidup aku selain family aku sendri which aku rase cam tak payah nak cakap la kan.


Mizz Arlynne The Monkey

This girl tak payah cakap la betapa i sayang gile kat die sebab sampai sanggup i tumpangkan umah i and bilik i semata2 nak kasik die tidor. Gile tak gile sampai berdebar la gak takut JAIS or JAKIM hambat aku and kena saman and sekaligus kawin free... haha.. tapi die nie memang besh and i really luv her. no words could describe how close am i to her. Tapi jangan salah paham eak. i nie tak straight so i hanye sayang die cam my sis. I will always love u darlink!!!

Hunny Bunny

Nie lagi sekor yang aku sayang gak since skolah menengah. My gurl yang stuck with me since high school until now. Dah dekat 7 tahun kenal minah nie and sampai dah masak sangat dengan perangai die yang girlish and ala-ala shweet gittew. Walaupun slalu berkrisis ngan bestpren nye Illya tetapi i tetap suke die yang bersikap honest and subtle at the same time. Love Yah!

Falliq a.k.a Affaliq

This is my bestfriend since forever (takdelah forever sangat. same time high school dulu2 gak). Been through a lot together. Our Ups and down. Even penah gado ngan die nie kejap dulu atas sebab-sebab yang dipuncakan oleh aku gak la kan. Die nie memang best wa cakap sama lu. If u have any problem die memang seorang kaunselor yang baik. A good listener when in time of needs. A future model and i hope he got what he wanted. Pray to God!

Kak Mu6

Insan yang aku kenal mase time dok kolej dulu. Tersangat la pemalu tapi bile dah kenal sangat2la Havoc sampai nak pecah buah pinggang nie nak melayan karenah mamat nie yang teramat la merepek. Sikapnya yang perfectionist itu memang patut dipuji sebab segala bende tak kire besar atau kecik konfom akan diambil kire. huhuuh

Kie a.k.a Viviana Layola

Sebuah nama yang tak perlu disebut2 lagi kerana sudah boleh dikira sebagai artis di kalangan plu2 di kelab2 dan juga di tempat2 lain since die nie memang la teramat la femes. Tapi i letak die kat sini bukan sebab die femes tapi sebab die nie memang la baik sesangat. His attitude which is funny yet honest memang patut dibanggakan. Die nie jenis tak memilih kawan sangat. Baik yang sehensem2 Brad Pitt hingga sesangkak aku nieh which i'm honoured to be his pal. Seseorang yang aku respect dari segi diplomatic leadershipnye yang kalah PM kite skang nieh.. gittew!

Nadiatul Nisa' Bte Kamaruddin

Seorang insan yang aku respect sebab sikap die yang blunt and straight-to-the-point punye attitude. Eventhough die nie agak laser sket orangnye tapi bile dah kenal lelame sket uols bleh paham kenapa die cakap bende2 tuh. bukan cakap kosong tapi memang ade baiknye die cakap dari takde orang cakap langsung... ape2 pon i like the way she is. kalo rase tak leh tahan better fix urself first sebab die nie memang str8 forward pnye orang which i really like. Aku pon dah bape kali kene laser ngan die and i really would like to thank her for that.... huhuhu

With Love,

-Iskandar Newton-