Friday, March 14, 2008

Future Unrequited Love


I don't even know how to describe my feelings actually. I'm kinda in a dilemma which I'm starting to fall in love with somebody who i knew i couldn't be with. I mean I've known him for quite sometime actually and i could call it "love at first sight" kinda thing. But by just looking at his gorgeous face, i knew it would be impossible for me to approach him. Right now, evasive technique are negligible since if i do that, people around me would start to notice weird and knowing them, things could and most probably get worst.

I'm so confuse right now. I've always told myself that I've always fall in love with the wrong person. I just dunno what to do right now. He's all I'm thinking about lately. I've tried pulling myself together but just dunno how to do it. I'm in such a wreck right now. But i think by posting this blog just ease out some of the pain I've been suffering all this while.

Now all i have to do is ignore this feeling and move forward. I can't live my life like this if I keep on doing this. I wish i could just scream out his name right now!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Burstday Pahhhhtayyy!!!! *Adi Lara's


Last Saturday i was invited to a birthday party of friend of mine. The theme was White and Denim and Also Speedo's and Bikini's if i'm not mistaken. Tapi sampai2 sajork kolam renang kering plak.. nasib baik la tak beli trunks yang sexy kat Philosophy tue... hhahahaks!
Anyways, sampai2 jer memang terbeliak tgk jejants yang ramai dan cando2 sume. Memang merembes jer aku tengok. Tapi hanya sekadar tengok jer la. Tak tegur apatah lagik exchange phone number. *carut sape eakk? tataw... LARIKK!!!
Pastu plak ade show dari Glitters.com which gave a wonderful performance. Memang enjoy gile. The food was nice and i had a blast.


P/S: Mase teman AJ gie shopping kat RAOUL tuh, nampak la sorang jejants cando keje sittew. Tup...tup jumpe kat party tuh. Happy sungguh!

Thursday, March 6, 2008

My Wish List...

Things i want...





1. N95 8GB

2. Armani Exchange Jeans

3. Narciso Rodriguez Eau De Parfum 100 ml

4. Topman Pvc RedBelt

Happy Birthday Ben@Nadea!


Hurm, Saje nak wish Happy Birthday to a pal of mine. Dah tua dah ko eak. May you live a happy and prosper life and found your true love along the way.. *ghittew!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Reunion...Sangat laaa!

Actually dah lame dah janji ngan Amzar nak lepak ngan die since die pon nak balik Osakan dah tak lame lagi. Die dah promise nak blanje aku makan since die janji nak belikan aku jersey from japan yang limited edition... last2 NAN ADO! Mane la aku tak tuntut, sebab bukannye nak suh die blanje pon, kite bayar occay! Tapi takpe, lenkali jangan lupe taw! =)


So kat sane pg la kat SECRET RECIPE yang sememangnye aku suke gak sebab aku suke melantak kek and brownies die... MMMM sedap gile! So lepak kat situ ngan ARINA ngan AMZAR jer since yang lelain bz.. but it was fun tho!


Tagged Survey...Iyolah Tue!

Today has been a bit slow for me. There's nothing exciting for me except for my 'scandal' yang lepak umah semalam and also my friend yang tido skali. So while waiting for some miracle idea to do, i got online on my Yahoo! Messenger and chat la ngan Adi, Axzery and Ajai Ajai. Sume tue cam sembang kosong sajo la kan. Tetibe jer AJ BUZZ! me and suh buat post sebab kene tagged.

So i visited his blog and saw this survey yang very the kewl gak la. *ko memang kan AJ suke mengetagg pada mase yang tidak seswai! tapi takpe, alang2 tengah bosan nie buat sajo la. So here goes:

Before kite mula there are some rules that have to be followed, if not the whole thing is not gonna work... ~DUHH!!!




  • Put your music player on shuffle

  • For each Question a.k.a Soklan, tekan next kat your music playa *so u wouldn't expect la what song gonna come out.. ghittew!

  • WAJIB DAN HARUS DAN MESTI MENULIS NAMA LAGU ITTEW WALAUPUN MACAM TAK LOGIK BUNYIKNYE UOLSSSZZZ!

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OK?" YOU SAY?

Don't Stop The Music By Rihanna

- The question sounds like somebody is F***ing me and ask whether i'm ok or not... of course if he's hawt i'd say DON'T STOP! hahaks *pelacur sangat nehh~~~!!!

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY

Hero By Mariah Carey

- Yes, the best description i got so far! LOL!

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Long Way To Go By Cassie

- Memula tue rase tak kene gak la, but then again, most of the guys that i've met memang have a loooong way to go to reach the qualities that i've wanted.. hahahks!

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Through The Rain By Mariah Carey

- It had been a slow day for me so, feels kinda rainy a bit a.k.a SENTIMENTAL. btol gak niehh~~..

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Menjelma By Kaer

- My life purpose is to APPEAR *menjelma???? haiyohhh nampak sangat aku nie reporter.. hahahks!

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Korobushko By Bond

- at first cam WTF??!!! macam la aku tau ape maksud die, so i googled it up and found the meang of it. So before ape2 check link nieh eakk dengan klik disini. Basically what it say's is the song is psychedelic. So kene gak la ngan moto hidup gue! hehe so far soo good*

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Despertar By Aisha Duo

- Am I that desperate???!!! *hanjing sangat!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

American Pie By Madonna

- "... This will be the day that I die..." kinda fit the puzzle... NEXT!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

D-Technolife By UVERWORLD

- Walaupun sangat tidak btol, tapi kekadang tue terpikir gak kalo2 kehidupan kite camne agaknye kalo in future eakk? *hiks!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?

Sensual Seduction By Snoop Dog

- Bestie as in besfriends ker? if so then...WTF???!!! they're totally NOT sensual to me in any f**king way! nak kene sambar petir??!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Real Emotion By Koda Kumi

- I kept on wondering if he's giving me the REAL EMOTION or not.. hurmm....

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Me Against The Music (Remix) By Britney Spears Feat. Madonna

- Currently i've been a lil' bit rebellious. Dontcha think so? muakakaka

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

You Know What They Do To Guys In Prison By My Chemical Romance

- Siall jerkk... but then again macam hawt! *Couldn't help ma self imagining all those hot and steamy sex! hahaks. But seriously NO! *lalallalaa

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

I Fell In Love With The DJ By Che'nelle Feat. Baby Charm

- Half True...Currently... hehehhe

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Jangan Bilang Tidak By Raffi Ahmad & Ayushita

- Yeah... kinda feel like a robot at home...

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Din Din Wo (Little Child) By Habib Koite & Bamada

- Kawin2 trus pikir pasal anak... berangan sangat aku nehh~~!!!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Sayang Sayang By Aliff Aziz

- Hobi aku suke sayang orang ker? then I LOVE KORANG SUME2 YANG BACE!!! hiks!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

Always Be my Baby By Mariah Carey

- Kadang-kadang....TAK MASOK!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Holding On By Taufik Batisah

- It's actually not a secret. Just that Something that i think everyone else malas nak tau pon. hurm...
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Otay, Sudah abis aku mengarut kan?? hahahaks, and di sebabkan bende nie kene tag mengetag, so aku pon kena la 'tag' orang lain gak, walaupun tatau sape nak tag kann!!! hahaks, macam ke sial jer, sape jer la yang bace blog aku nie pon. Then again, I tag la orang2 inniew:

1. En. Louie
2. Fahmi *New Comer








rasenye takde dah kot sebab aku rase ini saje jer la yang rajin bace blog aku pon.. hahahaks, yang lain dah buat dah tagg inniew.. hahaks!

Monday, March 3, 2008

Life...


I guess i have a new perspective in life. I use to see life in a very harsh way. But the thing is, it is me who made it the way it is. Yes, i still do believe that GOD created everything in this world, but, I know that He created the world for us and want to make us live the way that WE like. So in a sense that we are a part of the creation. So we do get involve in the universal creating process and we do play our part whether we realize it or not. Some of you who read this may not understand a word that i say. But in lame man terms, i view life the way that i want now. Not the way i think it was. Right now i want to become somebody that i always wanted. Useful to the society, helping people, do what i can to make others happy. It is just me. I like to see other people happy, because when they're happy, I'm automatically happy, even though i had a crush on that person, but if that person tried his hard to love somebody else, I would be glad to help to make him happy. To me right now, my life is nearly perfect. I didn't say that i have a lot of money and i'm filthy rich or anything. It's just that, right now, my life is running things the way i want now because i want it that way. I want to be happy all the time, so i am. I wanna meet a guy whose gonna love me the way i am and vice versa, i did. I'm just thankful for everything that i've got right now. Every little things that i've got.


I'm thankful that i have great friends that support me even when i'm in trouble

I'm thankful that I still have my parents eventhough some people are unfortunate enough not to have one.

I'm thankful that i've been blessed with a great family

I'm thankful for given a chance to live my life and get to help people and let people help me

I'm thankful that i've been given a chance to love and be loved.

I'm thankful that i've been blessed with the things that i've got even though some are shabby, those are going to change soon.


Ever since my perspective on life changed, i've started to realize something. It got me thinking.


"Why not from now, i will start to make at least one good deed a day and remember it?"


i know it sounds a bit vain, but most of the time we didn't even know that we've actually done a good did. For example, Let say you worked as a receptionist, u say hello almost everyday. But did u ever realize that maybe by saying hello nicely, u might brighten up some person's day just by saying hello? No right?


Then you go home and just whine about your job about how tough it was or how boring it was without even realize it that you've made someone happy on that day.


That is why i try to remember my good deeds. So that i can be thankful for being able to do it even though it's just a small deal like a simple phone call saying hi to your old friend.


I'm starting to love myself more. But not the extend of being vain, but more like having a certain respect on me. After all,


"To learn how to respect others, is to respect thyselve first!"

-William Shakespeare-


And you guys might be wondering why the life changing perspective all of the sudden?!


Well it's all because i've watched and read this book called "The Secret". It's really a hit-on-your-face kinda book. Really got me thinking what i've been doing with my whole life before.


And now all i want to do is move forward and advance even further with full of glory and success. And i want all the people that i love a.k.a family and friends to achieve what they want to so that i'm not the one whose happy. Since the basic concept of happiness is all about sharing, and i want to share my love and happiness with everybody else....