"It's never too late to be what you might have been." -- George Eliot

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ME!!!!!

"Pain pays the income of each precious things-William Shakespeare"

Arinie aku kuar tgk wayang kat Mid Valley ngan Anuar Razali. Die nie aku dah chat lame dah kat YM cume tak penah jumpe jer. So aku membuat inisiatif why not just kuar tgk wayang and sambil-sambil tue buat kawan baru skali kan? So tadi sampai-sampai jer tgk la cite Horton Hears Who *see it's not a question but rather a statement kan?*

Dengan keadaan yang sangat lapar nye aku pon pegi la beli tiket ngan mamat nieh. Pas beli tgk2 show lagi 15 menet so tak sempat la kalo aku nak pegi makan kat McD seblah tue. So aku pon tapau la thinking that maybe i can eat it later in the movies kan. Tup..tup mase nak masok tue budak yang jaga tiket tue kate McD tak bleh bawak masok dalam plak... aku cam motippp???? Slalu aku bawak masok ok sajorkk, nie time2 aku lapar bebenor le tak dapat nak bawak masok.. SENTAP!!!

So the movie was great la. Gelak2 sampai tak tahan nak tahan perot aku nieh hah! So kuar-kuar jer pegi la makan kat McD seblah ittew. Aku tau die order Fillet-O-Fish and aku makan Spicy Chicken McDeluxe yang aku tapau tadik tueh. Disebabkan kesejukan yang melampau kot sampai aku tak tahan tue sebab aku jadik lapar sangat sampai aku beli lagik satu burger Quarter Pounder. Memang kenyang gile-gile lah kannn??!!

So abis jer makan sume2 and rase cam dah rinse lepak ngan mamat nieh *hiks!

aku pon berangkut la pulang...separately occay! Baru jer jalan dua tiga tapak dari McD tue aku ternampak Hanjing Lina Juling a.k.a Effie(for people who don't know who he is just click here and here). So just say hi hi and bye bye jer la. Tak sembang sangat pon.

So dah sampai center court member aku si Syahmi plak msg cakap:

Syahmi (pose tido katenye tapi tetap cute eakk.. ko ADO?!)

Syahmi: " Ni nombor baru aku 012-3******"

Aku : "Haih, baru tukar nombor dah tukar lagik kew? Sanggup kan demi cinta! *hiks"

Pastu tak semena2 die call aku tanye aku kat mane, aku pon cakap la aku kat Mid Valley lagik. Kebetolan plak die ngan awek die kat sane gak. Ajak aku join skali *actually die datang nak suh aku abiskan Big Apple nye donut ittew.. Hanjeng sangat!!!

So tengah-tengah aku dok sembang and interview awek baru die ittew dapat message dari Ratu Kepok:

Ratu Kepok : "Ko kat mane?"

Aku : " Kat Mid, kenapa nyehh?"

Ratu Kepok : " Bace blog Isis Natasha Ayatullah skang!"

dalam hati aku memang dah berdebar sebab aku rase aku tau sangat ape cite ittew. Aku pon dengan bergegas gerak la dari Mid ittew and sampai-sampai jer kat rumah aku online and bukak blog die. Memang seperti yang kujangka. Die tulis pasal Ratu Penampar. So aku pon bace and bace la. So disini aku ada la beberapa komen pasal Ratu Penampar:

"The thing is that i don't have any problems with you. I just state what's in the blog just to say what is/was in my mind. Like I said, If there's any problem concerning ourselves, we have to look at ourselves first before we can blame other people and for that i think everbody should know their part already. Sometimes we can't stand what people are saying since we cannot accept the truth. But honey, the truth really hurts ALL THE TIME! I know that you've experience that yourself because your started using drugs because of the truth that you faced right? I didn't say that the way you handle the problem is wrong. Nobody should question how people handle their problems as long as they could move on to the next phase later on. But when you handle your problem, please keep in mind that you don't want to involve other people in you problems either directly or indirectly; in your case, slapping people since you've lost your patience.

Ignorance is bliss, but to me, in my opinion, if you have a problem, try to settle it rationally and logically. Don't jump to simple conclusions and simple action. People would think that you're not matured. Just try to think as an adult and be rational next time aite? I also have problems, but to me it's just the matter of What, How and When to settle the problems. Everybody makes mistakes once in a while. But since god blessed us as the utmost gratitude of being humans, we can actually learn from it. That doesn't mean that we change the nature of ourselves. We are created because we could actually make changes to the world and to do that we have to gradually change ourselves to a better person.

So what i can say to everybody and even myself is that nobody can avoid making mistakes. It's just the matter of how you learn from your mistakes. I've learn mine the hard way and i assumed that u've learn the hard way as it is right now.

If you hear people saying bad things about you, don't complain about it. Do something to yourself to prove that it is wrong. Show it; don't say it! Action speaks louder than words. That is why this issue has been dragged down until now since YOUR ACTION just unacceptable but it is still forgivable adn you still have a chance to come clean.

I love the quote by Vipin Sharma in Ratu Kepok's Blog:

"Always love the hearts that hurts you, but never hate the hearts that loves you"

Although it sound a bit mushy, but somehow it can also apple to u and everybody else for that matter. Because life is like a spiral *bak kate Mona Manja* The concept is still the same as life is like a circle, but you happen to realize that once you become successfull, u really become top of the tier, but once you fall down, u fall hard on your face until you feel like you can get up anymore and it takes a lot of effort to just rise up again. Just think about that girl. If we manage to improve ourselves little by little, day by day, Insyaallah, only good things will come our way."

Robbery..HELP!!!

Actually benda nieh dah lepas lame dah, tapi cume tak hupdate2 dari dulu lagik sebab bz ya amat nye *kann walaupun entry dibawah ni berjaya dipostkan jugak!

Seperti yang sedia maklum, korang sume tau aku nie part-time Fragrance Consultant *ataupun Promoter perfume lerrrr...* Since dah name aku part-time, so aku takde la counter yang tetap seperti orang-orang lain. Kadang-kadang kat Mid Valley, kekadang kat KLCC, tgk la mane yang panggil *on demand taw! ko ADO?!

So last week kot... aku pon tak hingat la, aku kene buat promotion kat Sungei Wang la, So cam biase aku nak la masok keje. Feeling datang awal lagik taw. So dengan bangganya aku pon catwalk ke staff entrance dan dengan confidensinye aku masok. Tetibe jer aku kene halau kuar balik. Aku ingatkan aku buat salahlah. Tapi bile aku tgk balik sume orang die halaunye. So aku dah buat konklusi bahawasanya Mak Cik guard kite nie dah 'Weng' kot agak nye.

Tetibe tengah sedap2 aku pose ngan Abang Dean Model, Aku nampak la kete polis tetiba menyusur didepan ku siap ngan siren2 skalik die bukak nye. Kete tue park jer depan staff entrance tue and polis2 tersebut trus masok. So aku dah membuat inferens lain yang mengatakan bahawa Parkson Sungei Wang kene Pecah Masok!

Kereta polis yang menyusur masok!

Havoc jap la kat luar... Hiks!*

Tapi tak sampai bape menet polis tu kuar kate orang yang masok tue dah berjaya melarikan diri. Memang suspender la kitorang kejap. Yer la, kitorang nak buat opening gambit *kononnye, tetibe rase cam insecure sebab takut ornag tue berpisau ker ape ker.. kite mane tau! Tapi aku seperti biase berlagak macho walaupun dalam hati dah jadik Women habis!

Tapi alhamdulillah tak jadik pape... just department Men's Wear jer yang banyak ilang baju... tue pon discounted items... tak ke BODO perompak tue!

Weird Outing with Nizam...

Today was a slow day for me since cam takde wat pape sangat la kan. So ingat cam biase just pose kat umah dok ngadap lettop sampai lebam bijik mata nieh.

Tup...tup, phone aku bunyik *dengan ringtone yang sungguh annoying bak kate sume orang*

NIZAM: "Hello mak hayam, awak buat ape tuh? kat mana? meh la teman kita makan kat bangsar sat!"

AKU: "Aku kat Cheras la, ade free gak la, nak buat ape makan sane? ade ape?"

NIZAM: "Aku dah lama tak makan nasik daun (dengan slang penang yang sangat pekatnyeee!!!) pisang. Teringin plak!"

AKU: "Ok la. Hang amik aku ja la naah! *tetiba cakap utara plak!

So aku pon pegi la ikut die pegi bangsar kat kedai india seblah Bangsar Village II tue. Bleh tahan la sedapnye. Makanan dah order sume siap tunggu la makanan sampai sambil mencuci mata ngan orang di sebelah meja ini.

Sambil-sambil kitorang tengah sedap makan nieh, datang la dua Cik Ki dok seblah meja kitorang. Kitorang pon just sambung jer la makan since sedap sangat la plak and sangat lapar lak mase tue kan. Tetiba sorang Cik Ki yang datang tadi tue tanye kitorang:

Cik Ki 1: "Korang makan ape tue? macam sedap!"

AKU: "Sotong goreng jer kak oii, order la."

Aku pon just jawab dengan sopan memandangkan orang tanye ngan elok la kan. Tetiba die bleh tanye lagik:

Cik Ki: " Hurm... kalo camtu nak try sket bleh tak?"

Aku dengan terkezut dan terkesimanya bagi jer la sotong goreng tue since kitorang pon dah kenyang. Yang buat aku kagumnye, Cik Ki sorang nie tanpa segan silu plak mintak sket, yer la, kalo aku sampai ke mampos segan nak mintak makanan kat orang yang kite tak kenal.. BTOL TAK? tapi diorang dinch camtue uolzzz, memang sungguh berani. Tabik Spring tau! ToiingggG!!!!

Kitorang pon bersembang lite2 jer la ngan Cik Ki berdua nie sementara nak habiskan makanan kitorang and nak tunggu makanan diorang yang baru sajork di'order'kan tue. Tetiba2 lagik bleh plak Cik Ki sorang lagik tue tanye NIZAM:

Cik Ki 2: "So.. U flying ker?"

Dah la aku terkesima ngan keberanian Cik Ki 1 tadi, nie plak aku terkaget plak. Bleh tau plak yang sini NIZAM nie cabin crew. Memang sah-sah la diorang nie kaki travelling. Memang terkezuut ya amat tak terkata aku time tue...

So sambil-sambil NIZAM melayan diorang aku plak rase cam nak shopping lite2 kat Bangsar Village II tue. So aku pon pegi la kedai underwear favourite aku which is PRIVATE STRUCTURE. So cadang nak beli satu underwear jer la.. yer la dah name nak shopping lite2 kannn????

So time bayar tue aku pon mintak la 10% diskaun sebab slalune regular dapat diskaun tue, Last-last mamat tue kate item yang aku amik tue memang dah diskaun 50%! Aku pon amik la baju lagi satu just nak cukupkan duit sajork! So dapat la sehelai baju and sehelai underwear yang aku rase tersangat la sexy uolzzz...

*ni la underwearnye.. sexy tak? huhuhuh

Tribute to Alyssa Liyana Part 2: Sex, Lies and Deceit

Continuing from the previous posting (click here).

Being famous also has taken a toll on her since she's struggling so hard to be successful in this cruel entertainment world. Her life began to change after her conflict with her boyfriend; P.DD.

She started to abuse herself with drugs until she almost destroyed her carrer life by slapping one of her bestfriend which happen to be very influential in this industry. Slowly, her career is going down little by little. People who know her started to talk bad things behind her back. She's becoming more and more violent because of the drugs of she's using.

Some of her friends try to advice her about her current unhealthy lifestyle which gonna give a bad impression to her image. But with the immense pressure of breaking up with her boyfriend, she's just couldn't handle it rationally.



She even thought of commiting suicide thinking that she couldn't handle it anymore. Everything start to fall apart. Her family didn't acknowledge her at all. Her friends start to ignore her. She's left alone by herself with no one to give her support.

Currently she's left alone with no one to help her. Being the independent woman that she is, she always thought that she could live in this world without anyone's help. But i hope she would realize someday that she would come to her senses and reflect back on her life. She could've been a great person and entertainer if she's just being a bit rational.

For now, things are going bad. But my hope is that she will confront her friends and start to apologize to her friends and really sorry for what she's done.

Pantun

Siakap
Senohong Gelama Ikan Duri,

Bercakap
Bohong Lama-Lama Terus Curi.

To Whom It May Concern... *for those who knows just shut the fuck up! LOL!

Sorry i haven't been updating (let alone been online) for quite a while. I've been working part-time at Parkson Sungei Wang since we're having this DIAMONDS promotion. Not that it's the first one since everybody know's that it's been launched for quite sometime already. So througout the week of promotion i could consider that the the sales are not that good. After all, the perfume was not that good. *matilaaa carut produk sendrik!

Anyways, while i was working, i recently hang out with Neo Anderson. He told me a lot about his previous and also this coming relationship. Right now he's having a crush with a person named A. Actually the story is like this, A has been observing ( if not stalking) Neo for quite sometime.

Then, one day, out of the blue, this A stumble upon Neo face to face. Thinking that it is the right moment to say everything, he confessed everything to Neo at that time. Of course Neo was struck with surprise and shock since he didn't even know that somebody actually had been looking and obeserving for quite a long time now. Though it might sound creepy at first, the gesture that the guy made to Neo seems quite sweet and honest which made Neo felt interested in him too. But there's just a TINY problem. A has just started a relationship with another guy. Which made matters worst, that guy is a control freak which would not allow A to have any friends and go clubbin without him. So Neo started dating A quietly eventhough he knew for a fact that A has a BF already. Weeks past and suddenly he received an SMS saying:

"Please don't disturb my boyfriend anywmore!"

Neo was stunt by that text message he just received. But one good thing about Neo is that he always have thing positive thinking. Always look at the bright side of thing sort to speak. So for a while he kept quiet since he don't want to ruin A's relationship with his Boyfriend. Recently, Neo receive a PM from A's YM saying that:

"Please don't disturb me anymore"

Neo was like, "What the hell?!"

So right now he's in a funky dilemma. He didn't even know this guy at first but since A entered his life, Neo's perspective on love has change since then. Even his friends noticed it.

So while hanging out with him, he introduced me this song which i think fit perfectly with his situation.

Imogan Heap - Hide & Seek

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to fall
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling
spin me round again
and rub my eyes,this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads - heavy

hide and seekt
rains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that its all for the best?
Because it is
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whacha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit, you don't care a bit(hide and seek)

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit
(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

Future Unrequited Love

I don't even know how to describe my feelings actually. I'm kinda in a dilemma which I'm starting to fall in love with somebody who i knew i couldn't be with. I mean I've known him for quite sometime actually and i could call it "love at first sight" kinda thing. But by just looking at his gorgeous face, i knew it would be impossible for me to approach him. Right now, evasive technique are negligible since if i do that, people around me would start to notice weird and knowing them, things could and most probably get worst.

I'm so confuse right now. I've always told myself that I've always fall in love with the wrong person. I just dunno what to do right now. He's all I'm thinking about lately. I've tried pulling myself together but just dunno how to do it. I'm in such a wreck right now. But i think by posting this blog just ease out some of the pain I've been suffering all this while.

Now all i have to do is ignore this feeling and move forward. I can't live my life like this if I keep on doing this. I wish i could just scream out his name right now!

Burstday Pahhhhtayyy!!!! *Adi Lara's

Last Saturday i was invited to a birthday party of friend of mine. The theme was White and Denim and Also Speedo's and Bikini's if i'm not mistaken. Tapi sampai2 sajork kolam renang kering plak.. nasib baik la tak beli trunks yang sexy kat Philosophy tue... hhahahaks!

Anyways, sampai2 jer memang terbeliak tgk jejants yang ramai dan cando2 sume. Memang merembes jer aku tengok. Tapi hanya sekadar tengok jer la. Tak tegur apatah lagik exchange phone number. *carut sape eakk? tataw... LARIKK!!!

Pastu plak ade show dari Glitters.com which gave a wonderful performance. Memang enjoy gile. The food was nice and i had a blast.

P/S: Mase teman AJ gie shopping kat RAOUL tuh, nampak la sorang jejants cando keje sittew. Tup...tup jumpe kat party tuh. Happy sungguh!

My Wish List...

Things i want...

1. N95 8GB

2. Armani Exchange Jeans

3. Narciso Rodriguez Eau De Parfum 100 ml

4. Topman Pvc RedBelt

Happy Birthday Ben@Nadea!

Hurm, Saje nak wish Happy Birthday to a pal of mine. Dah tua dah ko eak. May you live a happy and prosper life and found your true love along the way.. *ghittew!

Reunion...Sangat laaa!

Actually dah lame dah janji ngan Amzar nak lepak ngan die since die pon nak balik Osakan dah tak lame lagi. Die dah promise nak blanje aku makan since die janji nak belikan aku jersey from japan yang limited edition... last2 NAN ADO! Mane la aku tak tuntut, sebab bukannye nak suh die blanje pon, kite bayar occay! Tapi takpe, lenkali jangan lupe taw! =)

So kat sane pg la kat SECRET RECIPE yang sememangnye aku suke gak sebab aku suke melantak kek and brownies die... MMMM sedap gile! So lepak kat situ ngan ARINA ngan AMZAR jer since yang lelain bz.. but it was fun tho!

Tagged Survey...Iyolah Tue!

Today has been a bit slow for me. There's nothing exciting for me except for my 'scandal' yang lepak umah semalam and also my friend yang tido skali. So while waiting for some miracle idea to do, i got online on my Yahoo! Messenger and chat la ngan Adi, Axzery and Ajai Ajai. Sume tue cam sembang kosong sajo la kan. Tetibe jer AJ BUZZ! me and suh buat post sebab kene tagged.

So i visited his blog and saw this survey yang very the kewl gak la. *ko memang kan AJ suke mengetagg pada mase yang tidak seswai! tapi takpe, alang2 tengah bosan nie buat sajo la. So here goes:

Before kite mula there are some rules that have to be followed, if not the whole thing is not gonna work... ~DUHH!!!

• Put your music player on shuffle


• For each Question a.k.a Soklan, tekan next kat your music playa *so u wouldn't expect la what song gonna come out.. ghittew!


• WAJIB DAN HARUS DAN MESTI MENULIS NAMA LAGU ITTEW WALAUPUN MACAM TAK LOGIK BUNYIKNYE UOLSSSZZZ!

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OK?" YOU SAY?

Don't Stop The Music By Rihanna

- The question sounds like somebody is F***ing me and ask whether i'm ok or not... of course if he's hawt i'd say DON'T STOP! hahaks *pelacur sangat nehh~~~!!!

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY

Hero By Mariah Carey

- Yes, the best description i got so far! LOL!

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Long Way To Go By Cassie

- Memula tue rase tak kene gak la, but then again, most of the guys that i've met memang have a loooong way to go to reach the qualities that i've wanted.. hahahks!

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Through The Rain By Mariah Carey

- It had been a slow day for me so, feels kinda rainy a bit a.k.a SENTIMENTAL. btol gak niehh~~..

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Menjelma By Kaer

- My life purpose is to APPEAR *menjelma???? haiyohhh nampak sangat aku nie reporter.. hahahks!

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Korobushko By Bond

- at first cam WTF??!!! macam la aku tau ape maksud die, so i googled it up and found the meang of it. So before ape2 check link nieh eakk dengan klik disini. Basically what it say's is the song is psychedelic. So kene gak la ngan moto hidup gue! hehe so far soo good*

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Despertar By Aisha Duo

- Am I that desperate???!!! *hanjing sangat!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

American Pie By Madonna

- "... This will be the day that I die..." kinda fit the puzzle... NEXT!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

D-Technolife By UVERWORLD

- Walaupun sangat tidak btol, tapi kekadang tue terpikir gak kalo2 kehidupan kite camne agaknye kalo in future eakk? *hiks!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?

Sensual Seduction By Snoop Dog

- Bestie as in besfriends ker? if so then...WTF???!!! they're totally NOT sensual to me in any f**king way! nak kene sambar petir??!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Real Emotion By Koda Kumi

- I kept on wondering if he's giving me the REAL EMOTION or not.. hurmm....

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Me Against The Music (Remix) By Britney Spears Feat. Madonna

- Currently i've been a lil' bit rebellious. Dontcha think so? muakakaka

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

You Know What They Do To Guys In Prison By My Chemical Romance

- Siall jerkk... but then again macam hawt! *Couldn't help ma self imagining all those hot and steamy sex! hahaks. But seriously NO! *lalallalaa

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

I Fell In Love With The DJ By Che'nelle Feat. Baby Charm

- Half True...Currently... hehehhe

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Jangan Bilang Tidak By Raffi Ahmad & Ayushita

- Yeah... kinda feel like a robot at home...

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Din Din Wo (Little Child) By Habib Koite & Bamada

- Kawin2 trus pikir pasal anak... berangan sangat aku nehh~~!!!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Sayang Sayang By Aliff Aziz

- Hobi aku suke sayang orang ker? then I LOVE KORANG SUME2 YANG BACE!!! hiks!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

Always Be my Baby By Mariah Carey

- Kadang-kadang....TAK MASOK!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Holding On By Taufik Batisah

- It's actually not a secret. Just that Something that i think everyone else malas nak tau pon. hurm...
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Otay, Sudah abis aku mengarut kan?? hahahaks, and di sebabkan bende nie kene tag mengetag, so aku pon kena la 'tag' orang lain gak, walaupun tatau sape nak tag kann!!! hahaks, macam ke sial jer, sape jer la yang bace blog aku nie pon. Then again, I tag la orang2 inniew:

1. En. Louie
2. Fahmi *New Comer

3. Neo Anderson

rasenye takde dah kot sebab aku rase ini saje jer la yang rajin bace blog aku pon.. hahahaks, yang lain dah buat dah tagg inniew.. hahaks!

Life...

I guess i have a new perspective in life. I use to see life in a very harsh way. But the thing is, it is me who made it the way it is. Yes, i still do believe that GOD created everything in this world, but, I know that He created the world for us and want to make us live the way that WE like. So in a sense that we are a part of the creation. So we do get involve in the universal creating process and we do play our part whether we realize it or not. Some of you who read this may not understand a word that i say. But in lame man terms, i view life the way that i want now. Not the way i think it was. Right now i want to become somebody that i always wanted. Useful to the society, helping people, do what i can to make others happy. It is just me. I like to see other people happy, because when they're happy, I'm automatically happy, even though i had a crush on that person, but if that person tried his hard to love somebody else, I would be glad to help to make him happy. To me right now, my life is nearly perfect. I didn't say that i have a lot of money and i'm filthy rich or anything. It's just that, right now, my life is running things the way i want now because i want it that way. I want to be happy all the time, so i am. I wanna meet a guy whose gonna love me the way i am and vice versa, i did. I'm just thankful for everything that i've got right now. Every little things that i've got.

I'm thankful that i have great friends that support me even when i'm in trouble

I'm thankful that I still have my parents eventhough some people are unfortunate enough not to have one.

I'm thankful that i've been blessed with a great family

I'm thankful for given a chance to live my life and get to help people and let people help me

I'm thankful that i've been given a chance to love and be loved.

I'm thankful that i've been blessed with the things that i've got even though some are shabby, those are going to change soon.

Ever since my perspective on life changed, i've started to realize something. It got me thinking.

"Why not from now, i will start to make at least one good deed a day and remember it?"

i know it sounds a bit vain, but most of the time we didn't even know that we've actually done a good did. For example, Let say you worked as a receptionist, u say hello almost everyday. But did u ever realize that maybe by saying hello nicely, u might brighten up some person's day just by saying hello? No right?

Then you go home and just whine about your job about how tough it was or how boring it was without even realize it that you've made someone happy on that day.

That is why i try to remember my good deeds. So that i can be thankful for being able to do it even though it's just a small deal like a simple phone call saying hi to your old friend.

I'm starting to love myself more. But not the extend of being vain, but more like having a certain respect on me. After all,

"To learn how to respect others, is to respect thyselve first!"

-William Shakespeare-

And you guys might be wondering why the life changing perspective all of the sudden?!

Well it's all because i've watched and read this book called "The Secret". It's really a hit-on-your-face kinda book. Really got me thinking what i've been doing with my whole life before.

And now all i want to do is move forward and advance even further with full of glory and success. And i want all the people that i love a.k.a family and friends to achieve what they want to so that i'm not the one whose happy. Since the basic concept of happiness is all about sharing, and i want to share my love and happiness with everybody else....